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This song has been running through my head for the past four days.

near to you

he and I had something beautiful
but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
‘cause I knew he'd never love me back

such pain as this
shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
still a little bit delirious

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it's hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you.

you and I have something different
and I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred,
but I am working oh so hard
to get back to who I used to be

he's disappearing, fading steadily
well, I'm so close to being yours,
won’t you stay with me, please

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it’s hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you

I only know that
I am better where you are
I only know that
I am better where you are
I only know that I belong
where you are

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it’s hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you

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I meant to post yesterday, really I did, I just got caught up in work. Had to turn in a work plan - I told my boss that my "plan" was to work. heh. She laughed.

Work has been rather delightful this week. My co-worker, who received my name in our secret santa exchange, bought me this (the book of randomness) delightful, wonderful, most bestest gift ever. BUT the very best part is that Lem - the author - has autographed it AND drawn an adorable pet peev in it. Needless to say I was thrilled beyond words. I was EEEEEEE! all day yesterday.

~BEST GIFTS THIS YEAR!~
>Bunny: Book of Random - signed and properly defiled <-- authors words not mine. >pet fetishes -- friends to my peev (made by my favorite cousin)
>a working dryer
>free tickets to the symphony
>chocolates

*sigh*

isn't this time of year grand? With its white and wintery setting - its indulgence in giving and receiving. 'tis awesomeness.