Happy New Years Eve

above picture is from here

Tomorrow starts a new year... and needless to say I've decided not to make any resolutions - that is my resolution.

This week has started off with a giant bang -- my loverly (piece of crap) car, my baby decided to breathe its very last breath for me. I felt all sorts of pains the day I had to have it towed... by the way LOVE the fact that my pops bought AAA for me for Christmas - is a seriously useful gift for peeps like me. I did however wait for 3 hours for the tow person to show up. and the whole time I was thinking to myself 'My poor, poor baby. you poor thing.' Is it odd how attached we get to our cars?



~cars I'd like to buy~
>Mini Cooper S
>Smart Car Passion
>Toyota Corolla

I'm sure I cannot afford any of them at this point, but a girl can dream.

So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable.
Christopher Reeve, From speech at Democratic National Convention, August 1996

OMG! I found this adorable bookmark through the IshopIndie website. it's awesomelicious. I must have it for my collection.

I have discovered a hidden stash of bookmarks in random drawers around my house. it's weird how many I have. some are nice and some are just ones I picked up at the library with advertisements on them for various programs.


n-e-who's

I was looking at this website Arbor Beading because I saw an adorable necklace titled Love Letter - it's a tiny envelope and when you open it there's a little letter that says "I love you" It's so incredibly sweet I'd actually wear it and would love it if someone gave it to me. but now it won't let me access the link so I'm posting the picture. :)


isn't that sweet?!

~necklaces that I want or would wear~
>foreign text - Russian
>red peas in a pod
>little wing pendent
>Simple Silver Guilloche Antique Pocket Watch Plate
>My secret Garden
>Wings Embrace
>my happy place

~cute!~
>Squashy
>We make a good pear
>Nikoart Owl


I best stop with the jewelry...

there's just so much gorgeous stuff out there, so many talented artists sharing their creations with the world that I continue to search as each is beautiful in its own way.

Merry Christmas Eve

I'm sure everyone is looking forward to tomorrow, if for no other reason then you get the day off.


Merry Christmas & in the words of Tiny Tim "God Bless Us Everyone!"

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This song has been running through my head for the past four days.

near to you

he and I had something beautiful
but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
‘cause I knew he'd never love me back

such pain as this
shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
still a little bit delirious

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it's hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you.

you and I have something different
and I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred,
but I am working oh so hard
to get back to who I used to be

he's disappearing, fading steadily
well, I'm so close to being yours,
won’t you stay with me, please

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it’s hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you

I only know that
I am better where you are
I only know that
I am better where you are
I only know that I belong
where you are

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it’s hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you

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I meant to post yesterday, really I did, I just got caught up in work. Had to turn in a work plan - I told my boss that my "plan" was to work. heh. She laughed.

Work has been rather delightful this week. My co-worker, who received my name in our secret santa exchange, bought me this (the book of randomness) delightful, wonderful, most bestest gift ever. BUT the very best part is that Lem - the author - has autographed it AND drawn an adorable pet peev in it. Needless to say I was thrilled beyond words. I was EEEEEEE! all day yesterday.

~BEST GIFTS THIS YEAR!~
>Bunny: Book of Random - signed and properly defiled <-- authors words not mine. >pet fetishes -- friends to my peev (made by my favorite cousin)
>a working dryer
>free tickets to the symphony
>chocolates

*sigh*

isn't this time of year grand? With its white and wintery setting - its indulgence in giving and receiving. 'tis awesomeness.

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^^
I took that picture this autumn while driving home from work.


Today it's snowing... the air is crisp, cool, and inviting because it's gorgeous and white, wintry out there. When I have a chance I'll take a few pictures of the not so zombie park across the street from my work.

I'm sitting at my desk listening to Check Yes Juliet by We the Kings -- it makes me feel a tad sad.
the lyrics to the chorus go
Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we are not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me

I have added a few Christmas songs to my itunes collection. oh yay! *eyeroll*

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I finally finished Siddhartha... it's a beautifully written bit of literature, very descriptive and sometimes poetic in nature. Reading this book has made me think about my own life -- how much time I waste everyday, not noticing the millions of amazing things around me. How I pay no mind to other people and their stories. How I've hardened my persona against feelings of warmth and goodwill towards humanity. Honestly it made me regret that I am not a better person, a more devoted person, a kinder person. Eh, I think I shall dedicate this new year, 2009, though it is not a resolution -- just a dedication to make myself friendlier, more open, more accepting, and less like the Grinch that I am.

eeehehee

The Grinch: The nerve of those Whos. Inviting me down there - and on such short notice. Even if I wanted to go my schedule wouldn't allow it. Four o'clock, wallow in self pity; 4:30, stare into the abyss; 5:00, solve world hunger, tell no one. 5:30, jazzercize. 6:30, dinner with me. I can't cancel that again. 7:00, wrestle with my self-loathing; I'm booked. Of course, if I bump the loathing to 9 I could still be done in time to lay in bed, stare at the ceiling and slip slowly into madness. But what would I wear?

One really must love Dr. Seuss, he is rather amazing.

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.”
- Dr Seuss

moving right along --->


I love to read through the Blogs of Note -- they recently added this blog. it's very prithiful. She is very artistic and talented.


ugh.. I have found myself completely caught in the web of despair. I think I want to gift these shirts to my family. I've been browsing their website for the past 15 min. or so.

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I've been meaning to add these pictures to my blog for quite some time. I just hadn't uploaded them from my camera onto a computer. Finally, we have liftoff and the following pictures are brought to you courtesy of me. wooee!



yeahso... here they are



it was a dark and stormy night -- and all was quiet in the West O.



suddenly the sun shines through the clouds...

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I forgot to mention my new collapsible baton that I purchased on Sunday. It sure did cause a stir at church. my friend was quite amused at the *swoosh* *extend* move. She giggled uncontrollably... I think she's just jealous.

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Natalie Dee makes me smile.

~smile worthy~
>Shelcha - Yael Naïm
>Time Travel earrings
makes me wish my ears were pierced
>Gray and Blue - Jaymay
>Etsy
they really have some of the cutest, most unique things imaginable.
like key necklaces -- how adorable is that?!
>squishable reindeer

I've been reading Siddhartha recently and it has made me stop and think about some things. Have I become too bogged down with monetary things? Am I controlled by a need for things? What is my true purpose? Should I change my attitude towards life? Would my outcome be different if I implemented certain changes, which eliminate complications, in my everyday life?

*shrug* not that it's important to "make a difference" in the world as an individual, but each of us wants to be remembered for something and usually we want to be remembered for something good, something worthwhile, something important-- which makes it important to make a difference.

n-e-whooos

Quote of the day:
I bought some batteries, but they weren't included.
-Steven Wright

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I've decided that unless I have a really great title I'm just going to give the darn things numbers.

I wish I would get my pictures uploaded on flickr or something so I could pop them onto this blog instead of having to search all over the Internets for pictures to use to convey my many feelings.

The weather has been logically wintery the last couple of days. We have a bit of wispy snow still on the ground, but the rest has melted away. Either way it's getting bitterly cold and my fingers are not so delightfully frozen. What does all this have to do with anything? Well, quite frankly, nothing.

I didn't really do my lists yesterday. One seems rather like I'm being lazy. So I thought of a few things that I have recently decided to like.

~new likes~
>Pandora Radio
>Cutesy Cupcakes
>randomly found stuffs about vintage clothing patterns
>New Artist - at least newer to me... Corinne Bailey Rae
>gingersnap lattes? still not sure about this one.I decided to splurge today and get something more expensive than three shots of espresso with cream and some flavoring, but hey, this has three shots and milk so either way it's the same just with ginger something flavoring. *shrug* it's not bad, but I wouldn't drink it every day.

~top played itunes songs~
>Dear Chicago - Ryan Adams
played 241 times
>Near to you - A Fine Frenzy
played 229 times
>Bak et Hallelujah - Kaizers Orchestra
played 197 times
>The Stoop - Little Jackie
played 193 times
>Psalms 3 - Salvador
played 186 times.

Now it's a matter of trying to get other songs further up the list so that they'll be in the top 5. it's weird how I can listen to the same song for hours on end. weird I tell you. Something is not right with me.

~books I'm reading~
>Siddhartha - Herman Hesse
>Interview with a vampire - Anne Rice
>The Rights of Man - Thomas Paine
>An Ideal Husband - Oscar Wilde
>The Overcoat - Nikolai Gogol
It is no use to blame the looking glass if your face is awry.
- Nikolai Gogol

for kicks and giggles I recently reread (within 3 days) all of Ann Brashares Sisterhood of the Traveling pants books. They are so poignant and yet I feel cheesy reading tween/almost adult romances. One of the things I really adore about Ann Brashares though is that she uses quotes to begin each chapter. Quotes like
"not all who wander are lost." J.R.R. Tolkien
"Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday."
anyway I was reminded of how I love, love, love quotes. I adore a good quote so I am going to share 5 of my favorites.

~five favorite quotes~
>In the beginning, there was nothing, which exploded.
- Terry Pratchett
>I do not want people to be agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them.
- Jane Austen
>If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent him.
- Voltaire
>During the Season, father, I only talk seriously on the first Tuesday in every month, from four to seven.
- Oscar Wilde - An Ideal Husband
>I have
Immortal longings in me.
- William Shakespeare

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and counting.

Can't believe I even bother really. It's not that I enjoy sharing... OKAY! I do!

My shirts finally arrived from threadless I'm sure you cannot imagine how thrilled I am. I work tomorrow after a long and tedious "vacation". I'm going to wear one titled Decay. I shall wear it proudly. I shall also take pictures. WOO! I am ever so excited. weird.

I was browsing around today on websites looking for collapsible batons because you never know when a girl may need a defense weapon. Since I do not have my concealed weapons permit as of yet, I have been seriously contemplating getting something else that shall provide some adequate protection and low and behold I come across a v. interesting blog which made me fall in love all over again with our second amendment rights to bare arms. I mean seriously Why Not?
So yeah... on my Christmas list this year is a collapsible baton and a hand gun. Not that I'll get the later, but it's worth a shot. oi! that was completely unintentional.

I have bored you all enough for today. So onto the lists.

~things I discovered~
>that Andrew Bell designed a shirt for threadless. WEE
which is exciting because he draws the most adorably creepy creatures ever.
>Dario's Brasserie
was v. elegant and yet felt very comfy and warm, plus our waiter was a bit of a Vin Diesel type - muscled and bald. heh.
>I don't really like beer I don't know the exact names of the two that I tried, but I'm thinking a wheat beer wouldn't be my thing.
>Dario's crème brûlée is delish
>Oscar Wilde was quite wise. :)
from An Ideal Husband
LORD GORING. Other people are quite dreadful. The only possible society is oneself.
LORD GORING. During the Season, father, I only talk seriously on the first Tuesday in every month, from four to seven.
eehehehe He is my favorite of all Wilde's characters and Rupert Everett plays him to perfection.


*sigh*

I've no other great lists or news. ta ta for now.