Happy New Years Eve

above picture is from here

Tomorrow starts a new year... and needless to say I've decided not to make any resolutions - that is my resolution.

This week has started off with a giant bang -- my loverly (piece of crap) car, my baby decided to breathe its very last breath for me. I felt all sorts of pains the day I had to have it towed... by the way LOVE the fact that my pops bought AAA for me for Christmas - is a seriously useful gift for peeps like me. I did however wait for 3 hours for the tow person to show up. and the whole time I was thinking to myself 'My poor, poor baby. you poor thing.' Is it odd how attached we get to our cars?



~cars I'd like to buy~
>Mini Cooper S
>Smart Car Passion
>Toyota Corolla

I'm sure I cannot afford any of them at this point, but a girl can dream.

So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable.
Christopher Reeve, From speech at Democratic National Convention, August 1996

OMG! I found this adorable bookmark through the IshopIndie website. it's awesomelicious. I must have it for my collection.

I have discovered a hidden stash of bookmarks in random drawers around my house. it's weird how many I have. some are nice and some are just ones I picked up at the library with advertisements on them for various programs.


n-e-who's

I was looking at this website Arbor Beading because I saw an adorable necklace titled Love Letter - it's a tiny envelope and when you open it there's a little letter that says "I love you" It's so incredibly sweet I'd actually wear it and would love it if someone gave it to me. but now it won't let me access the link so I'm posting the picture. :)


isn't that sweet?!

~necklaces that I want or would wear~
>foreign text - Russian
>red peas in a pod
>little wing pendent
>Simple Silver Guilloche Antique Pocket Watch Plate
>My secret Garden
>Wings Embrace
>my happy place

~cute!~
>Squashy
>We make a good pear
>Nikoart Owl


I best stop with the jewelry...

there's just so much gorgeous stuff out there, so many talented artists sharing their creations with the world that I continue to search as each is beautiful in its own way.

Merry Christmas Eve

I'm sure everyone is looking forward to tomorrow, if for no other reason then you get the day off.


Merry Christmas & in the words of Tiny Tim "God Bless Us Everyone!"

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This song has been running through my head for the past four days.

near to you

he and I had something beautiful
but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
‘cause I knew he'd never love me back

such pain as this
shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
still a little bit delirious

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it's hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you.

you and I have something different
and I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred,
but I am working oh so hard
to get back to who I used to be

he's disappearing, fading steadily
well, I'm so close to being yours,
won’t you stay with me, please

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it’s hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you

I only know that
I am better where you are
I only know that
I am better where you are
I only know that I belong
where you are

near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though he's gone
and you are wonderful
it’s hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I meant to post yesterday, really I did, I just got caught up in work. Had to turn in a work plan - I told my boss that my "plan" was to work. heh. She laughed.

Work has been rather delightful this week. My co-worker, who received my name in our secret santa exchange, bought me this (the book of randomness) delightful, wonderful, most bestest gift ever. BUT the very best part is that Lem - the author - has autographed it AND drawn an adorable pet peev in it. Needless to say I was thrilled beyond words. I was EEEEEEE! all day yesterday.

~BEST GIFTS THIS YEAR!~
>Bunny: Book of Random - signed and properly defiled <-- authors words not mine. >pet fetishes -- friends to my peev (made by my favorite cousin)
>a working dryer
>free tickets to the symphony
>chocolates

*sigh*

isn't this time of year grand? With its white and wintery setting - its indulgence in giving and receiving. 'tis awesomeness.

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^^
I took that picture this autumn while driving home from work.


Today it's snowing... the air is crisp, cool, and inviting because it's gorgeous and white, wintry out there. When I have a chance I'll take a few pictures of the not so zombie park across the street from my work.

I'm sitting at my desk listening to Check Yes Juliet by We the Kings -- it makes me feel a tad sad.
the lyrics to the chorus go
Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we are not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me

I have added a few Christmas songs to my itunes collection. oh yay! *eyeroll*

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I finally finished Siddhartha... it's a beautifully written bit of literature, very descriptive and sometimes poetic in nature. Reading this book has made me think about my own life -- how much time I waste everyday, not noticing the millions of amazing things around me. How I pay no mind to other people and their stories. How I've hardened my persona against feelings of warmth and goodwill towards humanity. Honestly it made me regret that I am not a better person, a more devoted person, a kinder person. Eh, I think I shall dedicate this new year, 2009, though it is not a resolution -- just a dedication to make myself friendlier, more open, more accepting, and less like the Grinch that I am.

eeehehee

The Grinch: The nerve of those Whos. Inviting me down there - and on such short notice. Even if I wanted to go my schedule wouldn't allow it. Four o'clock, wallow in self pity; 4:30, stare into the abyss; 5:00, solve world hunger, tell no one. 5:30, jazzercize. 6:30, dinner with me. I can't cancel that again. 7:00, wrestle with my self-loathing; I'm booked. Of course, if I bump the loathing to 9 I could still be done in time to lay in bed, stare at the ceiling and slip slowly into madness. But what would I wear?

One really must love Dr. Seuss, he is rather amazing.

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.”
- Dr Seuss

moving right along --->


I love to read through the Blogs of Note -- they recently added this blog. it's very prithiful. She is very artistic and talented.


ugh.. I have found myself completely caught in the web of despair. I think I want to gift these shirts to my family. I've been browsing their website for the past 15 min. or so.

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I've been meaning to add these pictures to my blog for quite some time. I just hadn't uploaded them from my camera onto a computer. Finally, we have liftoff and the following pictures are brought to you courtesy of me. wooee!



yeahso... here they are



it was a dark and stormy night -- and all was quiet in the West O.



suddenly the sun shines through the clouds...

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I forgot to mention my new collapsible baton that I purchased on Sunday. It sure did cause a stir at church. my friend was quite amused at the *swoosh* *extend* move. She giggled uncontrollably... I think she's just jealous.

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Natalie Dee makes me smile.

~smile worthy~
>Shelcha - Yael Naïm
>Time Travel earrings
makes me wish my ears were pierced
>Gray and Blue - Jaymay
>Etsy
they really have some of the cutest, most unique things imaginable.
like key necklaces -- how adorable is that?!
>squishable reindeer

I've been reading Siddhartha recently and it has made me stop and think about some things. Have I become too bogged down with monetary things? Am I controlled by a need for things? What is my true purpose? Should I change my attitude towards life? Would my outcome be different if I implemented certain changes, which eliminate complications, in my everyday life?

*shrug* not that it's important to "make a difference" in the world as an individual, but each of us wants to be remembered for something and usually we want to be remembered for something good, something worthwhile, something important-- which makes it important to make a difference.

n-e-whooos

Quote of the day:
I bought some batteries, but they weren't included.
-Steven Wright

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I've decided that unless I have a really great title I'm just going to give the darn things numbers.

I wish I would get my pictures uploaded on flickr or something so I could pop them onto this blog instead of having to search all over the Internets for pictures to use to convey my many feelings.

The weather has been logically wintery the last couple of days. We have a bit of wispy snow still on the ground, but the rest has melted away. Either way it's getting bitterly cold and my fingers are not so delightfully frozen. What does all this have to do with anything? Well, quite frankly, nothing.

I didn't really do my lists yesterday. One seems rather like I'm being lazy. So I thought of a few things that I have recently decided to like.

~new likes~
>Pandora Radio
>Cutesy Cupcakes
>randomly found stuffs about vintage clothing patterns
>New Artist - at least newer to me... Corinne Bailey Rae
>gingersnap lattes? still not sure about this one.I decided to splurge today and get something more expensive than three shots of espresso with cream and some flavoring, but hey, this has three shots and milk so either way it's the same just with ginger something flavoring. *shrug* it's not bad, but I wouldn't drink it every day.

~top played itunes songs~
>Dear Chicago - Ryan Adams
played 241 times
>Near to you - A Fine Frenzy
played 229 times
>Bak et Hallelujah - Kaizers Orchestra
played 197 times
>The Stoop - Little Jackie
played 193 times
>Psalms 3 - Salvador
played 186 times.

Now it's a matter of trying to get other songs further up the list so that they'll be in the top 5. it's weird how I can listen to the same song for hours on end. weird I tell you. Something is not right with me.

~books I'm reading~
>Siddhartha - Herman Hesse
>Interview with a vampire - Anne Rice
>The Rights of Man - Thomas Paine
>An Ideal Husband - Oscar Wilde
>The Overcoat - Nikolai Gogol
It is no use to blame the looking glass if your face is awry.
- Nikolai Gogol

for kicks and giggles I recently reread (within 3 days) all of Ann Brashares Sisterhood of the Traveling pants books. They are so poignant and yet I feel cheesy reading tween/almost adult romances. One of the things I really adore about Ann Brashares though is that she uses quotes to begin each chapter. Quotes like
"not all who wander are lost." J.R.R. Tolkien
"Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday."
anyway I was reminded of how I love, love, love quotes. I adore a good quote so I am going to share 5 of my favorites.

~five favorite quotes~
>In the beginning, there was nothing, which exploded.
- Terry Pratchett
>I do not want people to be agreeable, as it saves me the trouble of liking them.
- Jane Austen
>If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent him.
- Voltaire
>During the Season, father, I only talk seriously on the first Tuesday in every month, from four to seven.
- Oscar Wilde - An Ideal Husband
>I have
Immortal longings in me.
- William Shakespeare

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and counting.

Can't believe I even bother really. It's not that I enjoy sharing... OKAY! I do!

My shirts finally arrived from threadless I'm sure you cannot imagine how thrilled I am. I work tomorrow after a long and tedious "vacation". I'm going to wear one titled Decay. I shall wear it proudly. I shall also take pictures. WOO! I am ever so excited. weird.

I was browsing around today on websites looking for collapsible batons because you never know when a girl may need a defense weapon. Since I do not have my concealed weapons permit as of yet, I have been seriously contemplating getting something else that shall provide some adequate protection and low and behold I come across a v. interesting blog which made me fall in love all over again with our second amendment rights to bare arms. I mean seriously Why Not?
So yeah... on my Christmas list this year is a collapsible baton and a hand gun. Not that I'll get the later, but it's worth a shot. oi! that was completely unintentional.

I have bored you all enough for today. So onto the lists.

~things I discovered~
>that Andrew Bell designed a shirt for threadless. WEE
which is exciting because he draws the most adorably creepy creatures ever.
>Dario's Brasserie
was v. elegant and yet felt very comfy and warm, plus our waiter was a bit of a Vin Diesel type - muscled and bald. heh.
>I don't really like beer I don't know the exact names of the two that I tried, but I'm thinking a wheat beer wouldn't be my thing.
>Dario's crème brûlée is delish
>Oscar Wilde was quite wise. :)
from An Ideal Husband
LORD GORING. Other people are quite dreadful. The only possible society is oneself.
LORD GORING. During the Season, father, I only talk seriously on the first Tuesday in every month, from four to seven.
eehehehe He is my favorite of all Wilde's characters and Rupert Everett plays him to perfection.


*sigh*

I've no other great lists or news. ta ta for now.

1 day and counting...

it's almost Thanksgiving and I'm very excited with the notion that I get to entertain family this year. I am quite looking forward to practicing my cooking skills on this so special of a day.

I suppose since Thanksgiving is about being thankful, my lists will be about thankfulness and things I am thankful for.

~a few things I'm thankful for~
>a new dryer
>family
>turkey roasting bags
>Tony Chachere's Spice n' herbs seasoning
>dropping gas prices

~new favorite shirts~
>Kyoto
>Day of reckoning
>Colorblind

>Infamous mishaps through history
>Bye Bye Apocalypse

~a few from Select Tees~
>By the Moonlight
>Eat shirt and die
>Renaissance beauty


~3 that I just purchased~
EEEEE!!! can't wait to wear them.
>Making Work Fun
>Best Mime Ever
>Decay

~5 random things I'm thankful for~
>keys
>laundry soap
>OED
>free music
>Ipods
I really want one of those bright nanos, but I have loads of music so would actually need the 120gb. :(

~top 5 songs on itunes
>Dear Chicago - Ryan Adams
played 241 times
>Near to you - A Fine Frenzy
played 221 times
>Psalms 3 - Salvador
played 186 times
>Bak et Hallelujah - Kaizers Orchestra
played 185 times
>Too Long - Yael Naïm

~recently added~
>Slowness - Calexico
>Nice for a Change - Zahl
>Francis' Lonely Nights - Janove Ottesen
>Gerldine - Glasvegas
>Oh my God, Charles Darwin - The Low Anthem

Thanksgiving

There's nothing better than the week of Thanksgiving. I think I like the holiday more because it's so close to my birth date. I get to celebrate getting old and then be thankful for getting old. How great is that?

I am very excited about this Thanksgiving. My cousin and his family are going to be at my house this year and I am cooking a turkey for maybe the second time in my entire life. I'm planning on making a turkey recipe that I saw on the food network -- done by Sandra Lee (who quite frankly annoys the heck out of me for no other reason than she's the queen of overdone tables).

I'm also making green-bean casserole, cranberry salad (from a recipe passed down from my grandmother to my mother), mashed potatoes, and ham. I'm sure I'm forgetting something, but my brain is shot. I spent all of yesterday evening cleaning my over-cluttered house. I am completely and utterly exhausted.
Not that rest is anywhere in my near future... as baking, cooking, peeling, cleaning etc. are on the list of things to do tomorrow. Plus I will have to get up early to get the turkey started 4-6 hours to cook/bake something in the oven good lord, I hope I have enough time and do not over sleep.

I'm not stressed. :)

really.

*collapses in a heap*

Happy Thanksgiving to you all!

oh joy...

it's finally Wednesday. Woot! I actually remembered and, golly gee, had time to sit and write something. I wonder sometimes why I bother to keep an online journal/blog of any sort. It's not really like there is much that is of interest about me. I live an ordinary life, work an ordinary job, and overall I'm nothing to be commended. That being said... on to the lists.

There will be no venting today... instead I shall list the things that make me happy.

~happy things~
>coffee
>Squishables
>this adorable octopus necklace
>the best t-shirt place evah
>online literature such as Discourse of Method by Descartes


~songs that make me smile~
>Død mann tango - Kaizers Orchestra
sha la la laaaa sha la la
>Black and Gold - Sam Sparro
>Cheater Cheater - Joey & Rory
>Run - Amy Macdonald
>The Stoop - Little Jackie

~other things that make me smile~
>yarns
even though I am terrible at doing any projects
>fingerless gloves
I'm not really sure why
>I love this shirt I am sure the explanation is in order... but I don't have one really.

>Tuesdays & Thursdays at work
every other day is fair and well... but there is something special about Tuesdays and Thursdays.
>hahhahahaha Niiiiiice

~countries I want to visit~
>Russia
I really want to go back to Moscow. I miss it.
>Iceland
>Italy
>New Zealand
>Czech Republic & Slovakia

and thus ends my ramblings for today.

once again

it's not Wednesday. I have to be honest I've had a rather busy last couple of days. I mean with the whole day off and a short Wednesday because of Spanish class in the evening... well, I just can't keep up with the blogging. Plus,I do not have anything to say. so. there.

um... yeah. I have just been so busy.

I've had two songs stuck in my brain for the last two days.

If you'd like to hear them it's possible to go on this awesome website.

Dear Chicago - Ryan Adams
LYRICS
Dear Chicago,
You'll never guess.
You know the girl you said I'd meet someday?
Well, I've got something to confess.
She picked me up on Friday.
Asked me if she reminded me of you.
I just laughed and lit a cigarette,
Said "that's impossible to do."
My life's gotten simple since.
And it fluctuates so much.
Happy and sad and back again.
I'm not crying out to much.
Think about you all the time.
It's strange and hard to deal.
Think about you lying there.
And those blankets lie so still.
Nothing breathes here in the cold.
Nothing moves or even smiles.
I've been thinking some of suicide.
But there's bars out here for miles.
Sorry about the every kiss.
Every kiss you wasted (bad / back)
I think the thing you said was true,
I'm going to die alone and sad.

The wind's feeling real these days.
Yeah, baby, it hurt's me some.
Never thought I'd feel so blue.
New York City, you're almost gone.
I think that I've fallen out of love,
I think I've fallen out of love . . . with you.

~~ I think I'm in a very melancholy mood as of late. I'm tired. I even feel alone most of the time and I'm pretty much always with someone. Is it possible that once you've decided not to dream anymore that you start dieing? If so then that is how I feel right now. dead.

Absolute Zero - Jason Mraz
LYRICS
You. You were a friend. You were a friend of mine I let you spend the night
You see how it was my fault. Of course it was mine.
I'm too hard at work. Have you ever heard of anything so absurd ever in your life.
I'm sorry for wasting your time.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's my job to make the most of it
Of course I didn't know that it would happen to me. Not that easy.

Hey what's that you say? You're not blaming me for anything that's great
But I don't break that easy. Does it fade away?
So that's why I'm apologizing now for telling you I thought that we could make it
I just don't get enough to believe that we've both changed.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's my time to make the most of it
How could I ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no
All along the fault is up for grabs why don't you have it
Well it's for sale go make your offer, I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.

Well neither one of us deserves the blame because opportunities moved us away
And it's not an easy thing to learn to play a game that's made for two that's you and me
The rules remain a mystery. See it can be easy.

Who am I to say this situation isn't great? It's our time to make the most of it
How could we ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no
All along the fault is up for grabs and there you have it
Well it's for sale go make your offer, I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.

Pet Peev

So, based on my love of Bunny I decided for Halloween to make a pet peeve and possibly (if I had actually gone out) dress like pink bunny. NOT PLAYBOY BUNNY! PINK BUNNY. there is a big friggin' difference people... like seriously... geez.

any whoozz I have made a pet peev. He is not perfect, but rather very flawed and he is mine. all mine. My very own pet peev. I wuvs him. :) heh.

I'm sure you are all wondering "What is a pet peev?"

Well, the only way to actually explain a peeve is to have you read bunny.

A peev is for life, not just for christmas

Its name was Alber

Bunny Island read until 848.

yet another day...

Halloween is on its way and I'm thinking BUNNY! Bunny complete with cute yet creepy tale.

It's an exciting day. I shall not give the chilluns candy. I am not that nice.

so, my lists...

what would you like today?

~movies recommended to me~
>Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless mind
>The Boondock Saints
>Be kind Rewind
>Queen of the Damned
>Death at a Funeral


~movies I've watched recently~
>Nick and Nora's infinite playlist
>Indiana Jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull
>21
>Iron Man
>What Happens in Vegas

~books I'm STILL reading~
>We - Yevgeny Zamyatin
>Cranford - Elizabeth Gaskell
>Breaking Dawn - Stephanie Meyer

educate thy self.

ugh... have you ever spent an entire day hating the fact that people these days are complete and total idiots? I have done that for the past 2 days. Days which I have had to work with the greater public of my local. Now I am quite exhausted AND my eye is twitching. ugh.

~top idiotic responses~
>I shouldn't have to give you any identification. I was born here.
-- and I'm thinking to myself "WHO FRIGGIN' CARES!"
ugh. seriously? like oh my god really? you're not like oh my god kidding me?
actual response -- I don't really care where you were born. I still need to see ID.
them:I'm not showing you a damn thing and I didn't ask for any of this I just want my information.
me: I need you to show me identification as that is our policy.
them: well it's stupid. There is something wrong with your administration that they require people to have identification.
me:Ma'am, for your protection we require that all individuals who would like information about their account, without their card being present, show proof of who they are. it's simply a precaution.
>them:I wants to get a new account.
me:have you had an account with us before?
them:Yes
me:then we won't make you a "new" account we'll just update the old one.
them:but I have fines.
me: yes, and those will need to be taken care of before we can update your record to full privileges.
them:well.. I can't do that today.
me:then I won't be able to update your account.
them:then give me a new one.


ugh.





~books on my reading shelf~
>The Overcoat by Nikolai Gogol
>Cranford by Elizabeth Gaskell
>Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Meyer
>Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky
>We by Yevgeny Zamyatin

~ha ha ha new song~
>Cheater, Cheater - Joey and Rory

~current favorite songs~
>Black and Gold - Sam Sparro
>Run - Amy MacDonald
>Everything - Michael Buble
>Que Sera, Sera - Pink Martini
>Goodnight Rose - Ryan Adams

well, I forgot to mention that I leave work early every Wednesday afternoon because I am taking Spanish language classes for work. This is probably part of my horrid problem as far as stress is concerned. I feel like an infant -- trying to learn things that I'm just not really capable of, even though I know I am. n-e-who this month is Hispanic Heritage month so we had a lovely bit of artwork about Frida Kahlo and our museum will be hosting artwork by Diego.

off I run chilluns -- have fun.

happy hamster

~alt text "mostly if it's bad"
*sigh*

I've had an jolly good weekend -- yes, I spent it doing a lot of nothingness, but then this is my prerogative.

Friday - I got to hold my friends wee bairn at the hospital... he's adorable. She's hoping he gets to go home soon.

Saturday - since my Pops (father) is still in town I went shopping with him at Costco after madly cleaning the kitchen and such. then I cooked a nice sweet and sour balti chicken dish. Over all a great Saturday.

Sunday - I went to church -- went out after church with friends as it was the last service that our mutual acquaintance would be here. I will miss him quite a lot. Then in the evening I went to a bonfire at my boss's house. It was quite nice.

Monday - a lot of nothingness and watching Hamish Macbeth. I adore Scottish accents and should think that I'd adjust very well to the country. I'd like that close knit feeling I think. n-e-whoo that evening because of a dryer catastrophe at home I had to frequent a laundry mat. ugh. I spent 2 hours of torture at a laundry mat -- torture because i had to watch Spanish soap operas. Nothing worse than a soap opera in my opinion and to be forced to watch it IN a language you don't really understand.. ugh. I thought my ears would start bleeding from all the crying that went on. but I got my clothes washed, dried, and folded. so all is well with the world.

lists for today -- well -- I don't have anything cool or new or interesting. So perhaps I'll just not make a list. HAHAHHAHAHHAHAH just kidding.


Not that I just discovered this or anything BUT I did just discover this

~fun online games~
>chuzzle I have to find a place to play for free
>tetris -- addicting. drrrr esp. on facebook where I have to beat my friends scores.
>Happy Hamster
same linky as earlier. OMG too silly and wow. I giggled like a little girl.


~itunes top played~
>Bak et halleluja - Kaizers Orchestra
played 139 times
>Lover I don't have to love - Bright Eyes
played 127 times
>Everything - Michael Buble
played 123 times
>The Stoop - Little Jackie
played 121 times
>Waterfall - Salvador
played 120 times



odd things I've been asked online
>my name appears to the side of my picture
"wot your name?"
>from creepy old man. creepy because he likes to hug, caress, etc. on friendzii vs. just smiling like a normal old geezer to a young hot chicka -- and by old I mean old enough to be my grandfather
"invite me to be your facebook friend??"


there are so many that I haven't the time to sort through them. SO be happy with two stupid questions from two stupid people OKAY FOLKS.

lord? of the falls... plip...

Have you ever just had one of those weeks where you don't want to do anything. That's this week for me. I feel tired - exhausted really - by everything. I also feel very numb. I'm sure it all has to do with recent changes in my environment. My younger brother/room-mate moved to Wisconsin this past weekend. Sort of brings out all my angst of being alone. We spent a lot of quality time together. Driving around town, yelling at weirdies, watching movies - even cooking. *sigh* it makes everything seem rather lifeless and boring. It's not that I don't like having my house back, it's just that it is nice to have someone around to talk to, other than myself.

I feel like I'm living on liquid sunshine -- here today, consumed immediately and then GONE! dagnabbit. happy thoughts, think happy thoughts.

lists - as it is *that* day again.

~quality reading~
>Lem outdid him self today. I chuckled and chuckled at Bunny
>We written by Zamyatin, Yevgeny
>A Softer World

I am limiting my list to the number 3 today... why? because I feel like it and it is my freakin' blog. :p

~recently discovered awesomeness~
>scritch scratch
>not so recent, but totally worth mentioning. well, the girly sale is recent. BUY SHIRTS PEOPLE! and then wear them, please. :)
Threadless
>Pon and Zi


~itunes? yes, updated list is tres amusing~
>Lover I don't have to love - Bright Eyes
played 126 times OMG!
>The Stoop - Little Jackie
played 107 times
>Bak et halleluja - Kaizers Orchestra
played 103 times

spastic-ness

life is full of all sorts of challenges, as I'm sure you know for yourself. I often hope that I meet these challenges with dignity and honor. HA HAHAHHA

however this is rarely the case.

My recent peeve -- and I have many -- involves singing at my church.


peeve #82473923
being asked to sing and practice is an hour before service and I don't know the songs.

peeve #813478294
people watching me like a hawk so they can criticize my every move and action.

peeve #12908312
singing songs that I find redundant and stupid and then having to compliment people on choosing them.

peeve #23472343
listening to the practice cd *blech*

peeve #1824798274
smiling while singing. *evil grin*

wacky wednesday.

I've been horrible about updating. It seems the only day I actually get to blog is Wednesday. My job has this contest going on at the moment -- we're suppose to start a blog about technology, then familiarize ourselves with the various "free" techie things offered to bloggers that make our lives, as bloggers, more convenient. Things like Flickr. I have thought of joining the contest just to win the various prizes, but I just... yeah... I can't force myself to blog when I don't have anything people would be interested in reading.

mreh.

~boredom~
>friendzii
>no longer have treasure hunt to keep me busy
>work
>too much work
>life

I was talking to a close friend the other day and said "Perhaps I should put a top ten ways to make a man squeal in my blog." you know, because I do lists and things. *head shake* and I'm just so awesome at it.

but I thought about it... and came up with an amusing list - amusing to me anyhow.

~5 ways to make men squeal~
>mention to them that you took some pictures -- don't send them
>send them naughty pictures of girly underbits - or just naughty pictures
>lick something provocatively while they're watching.
>text them something boring, but worded in such a way that it can't be mistaken for anything else but a come-on.
>feign innocence

To be honest I don't really know that much about driving men mad. I'm not an ego stroker and so relationships with me don't last very long. I sorta shoo them away before they can get too close to my personal life. Drama causes me to become a volcano and destroy things so I tend to shy away from it -- and as we all know relationships are DRAMA.

moving right along.

~5 favorite songs of the day~
>O' sailor - Fiona Apple
>Ready for Love - India.Arie
>Yes, I'm cold - Chris Bathgate
>Desperate Guys - the Faint
>Day too Soon - Sia

*sigh*

wow, um.. it's that day again. As for lists I have aplenty today.

~things I don't like about my neighborhood~
>it's the frickin' ghetto
>a guy just got beat up outside my driveway
>the people are ghetto
>IT'S THE GHETTO
>and it's the ghetto

~things I do like about my neighborhood~
>it's close to downtown
>my actual street is secluded
> *draws blank*
> uh
> yeah. heh.

~top played songs on itunes~
>Sweet Child o' Mine - Guns N' Roses
91 times
>Lover I don't have to love - Bright Eyes
88 times
>We are nowhere and it's now - Bright Eyes
85 times
>Dream - Priscilla Ahn
83 times
>Madly - Tristan Prettyman
82 times

~happy stuff~
>Kaizers Orchestra -- specifically Die Polizei
>but also Tokyo Ice Clementime -- it makes me all cheery
>Joselyn Art Museum
>The Faint -- Omaha Band.
>gchat

~mmmmmmhhhh~
>Mahogoney chicken
>stuffed French toast from Lisa's Radial Cafe
>The Taj
>Sweet and Sour Balti Chicken
>coffee. ;)

and ONE more happy thing. Treasure hunting on (fluff)friends application. only 80 something gems to go and I get a (googly)spidey. supa!!

We are.... where?

I have had a pretty good weekend. Well, that is aside from ticking off the world at large. I seem to have this knack for bringing out the worst in people. I'm snippy, sarcastic, caustic, and well overall I'm mean.

Don't you just hate getting forwards in your inbox? I mean come on, how many times are you going to read 'Poison in Dog food'? really? this one again? Or my recent favorite are all the political emails. I seem to get the same email from at least ten different people IN THE SAME DAY! this makes my blood boil. If you're not writing me a personal email DON'T SEND ME ANYTHING. Honestly. It's like a pet peeve of mine - pet peeve #8328734.

*sigh*

I did however, in the midst of angering the masses, manage to go to an orchard and pick apples, drink delicious cider and spend way too much money. It was awesome.

Here's to apple butter, apple sauce, apple pie, apple cider, apple jelly and raspberries. :) I love fall.

wha?

no, really, today is Wednesday? shucks. another list day.

~exciting things~
>my new frenchpress
>my new frenchpress
>my new frenchpress
>my new frenchpress
>my new frenchpress

:) no really. I'm excited about it. just a smidgen.

~real list~
>friends
>advice you don't want to hear, but know you need
>trustworthiness
>acceptance
>fan mail - kidding.

~favorite songs of the week~
>Lover I don't have to love - Bright Eyes
>Turpentine - Brandi Carlile
>Come Back Margaret - Camera Obscura
>Sweet Child o' Mine - Guns N' Roses
>Cancer - Joe Jackson

~artists I finally have again~
>Sia
>Camera Obscura
>Suzanne Vega
>Yael Naim
>Dashboard Confessional



I don't really have anything else to add.

just... nope that's all. nothing. drawing a blank.

This is me. signing out for today. :) have fun all.

my favorite four letter word

FREE!

there is nothing better than getting something you've wanted, for free. I mean the excitement is uncontainable.

Friday night I go to Starbucks to get coffee. Now I've been contemplating buying a french press for awhile now. Mostly because I think they are adorable and I'd be able to make a small amount of coffee for myself. The one I really wanted was about $40.00 and made approximately 8 cups. 10 times more coffee than I should ever drink for sure. I would be like Tigger bouncy, trouncy, flouncy, pouncy
Fun, fun, fun, fun, fun!!

So, I'm deciding on a smaller less fancy plastic model when I look over and see my little beauty staring at me from the clearance shelf. It was so beautiful it took my breathe away.

I get it up to the counter and I'm asking the barista what sort of coffee I should buy as I usually just drink coffee from a coffee shop. I don't buy, grind, brew my own. While I'm asking her this she's trying to ring up my little find and is having some difficulty. She finally looks up as says "I guess you get this for free." I'm stunned. I stand there staring at her like she's from another planet and eeep out "free?!"
"yes, free. It won't ring up so you get it for free."
"really? Free?!"
"yes, really. You get it for free."
"this isn't a joke? I get it for free?"
"yes."
"EEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!" -- pink bunny moment
in the meantime my brother is standing to the side going "damn, I feel like I just lost the lottery. I feel like I just missed out on a golden opportunity."
me: EEEEEEEEE!!! free!!!

n-e-who. so, what sort of roast should I buy?

I am now a bean grinding, brewing, coffee drinkin' machine. I don't think I've come down from my "free" high in the past 5 days.

It is really that day again?

Wow, time flies when you're not having fun. I have for the first time in awhile been meeting people online. It all started with this facebook application request that I stupidly said yes to. Now I regret it with my whole being. Yeah, if you have facebook do not add Friendzii... oh, it relates quite well to its similar sounding buddy Frenzy. I'm assuming that the people who made it were thinking to themselves "let's start a smiling frenzy with friends and call it Friendzii!!" OMG! ugh. *facepalms* It's the most ridiculous application ever. basically you smile at random people on bebo and facebook, by smiling you earn credits to do more than smile, give gifts, and tag people. I have met some doozy people. Guys who start the conversation with "Hey sexy, wanna get together and have a good time?" "LIKE NO! FREAK!" *shudder*
I have however met some nice, normal people on there and so I could say that it isn't all that bad. However I've never really been good at the whole 20 questions game. If I feel inclined I'll tell you about my life, if I don't then I won't. fair enough? I guess not. I feel incredibly bad about how rude, snarky and sarcastic I am. I probably give the impression of complete coldness. and well, some of that is pretty true. I am just not a warm, fluttery girl. I like order in my chaos <-- is that possible? hrm.

ugh. so.

yeah.

lists. it's that day again. My friend and I are starting a top ten list. When we finish it I'll post it next Wednesday. :)

~things I've been asked via the Internet~
>to be friends in the facebook ???????
yes, that was the question.
>What do you do to get your heart racing?
>Where are you from
>will you add me as friend to chat
>what's your hobby

~Artists of the day~
>Melody Garbot
>Michael Buble
>Keaton Simons
>Johnny Flynn
>Duffy

~Songs of the day~
>Gravity - John Mayer
>Ironic - Alanis Morissette
>Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold
>The Last Goodbye - James Morrison
>Let's Dance to Joy Division - The Wombats

~Books on my work desk~
>Secrets of the secret place - Bob Sorge
>Bataan: our last ditch - John Whitman
>Love affair of an English Rogue - Jillian Hunter
>Are you somebody? - Nuala O'Faolain
>Lutheran Church Basement Women - Marten and Todnem

yikes. weird titles. odd books. wow. the requests are strange somedays.

~top 5 songs on itunes~
>Falling or Flying - Grace and the Nocturnals
times played 72
>Madly - Tristan Prettyman
times played 69
>Afternoon - Carla Bruni
times played 67
>Waking up - Bitter:sweet
times played -63
>Butterfly - Jason Mraz
times played 60

freaks and weirdos on the webbernets

I love how the internet opens up the possibility of making a complete ass of yourself. I mean where else can you say to a person you've just met "you're so incredible hot. my *ahem* is getting hard."? I mean really? Seriously? What happened to common polite conversation? what happened to actually getting to know someone more than one second before you blurt out your kinkiest hopes and dreams. "no, really, I want to see you hanging upside down from a telephone pole. yeah. that's my fantasy. really."

ew. get real weirdos and freaks. The normal person does not like to encounter such things via the internet NOR do they enjoy such encounters in person. and by normal people I am speaking for myself.

My -shorter- list of rules for guys -- online chatting.
1) do not mention that you're thinking of a girl in a perverted way if you just met her 5 seconds ago and she has given you no indication of interest. M'KAY that means you.
2)If she does happen to fain interest. be polite. ask her about herself.
3)if she tells you something personal DO NOT ASK HER about her bedroom activities. My guess is that she still doesn't know you from Adam and she doesn't want to know your size or length or how flexible you are.
4)If she does EXPRESS interest then go from there, but take is easy on the sexy talk. It's only cute if she's instigating it. No, seriously... you know I'm right.

and those are a few NOT so simple rules. Just remember to be cool. Your mother, I hope, taught you some manners and gentlemanly behavior. You'll catch more with honey than you will with vinegar... or some such nonsense.

lists... hrm.

Well, I'd like to say that I have ever so much to say today, but I really don't. I went on vacation over the Labor day weekend and it was fantastic. I forgot just how much I adore Wisconsin. it's just so lush and green, with rolling hills and bright red barns. Oh sure they still have the cornfields and such, but it's different. It seems brighter and cheerier. So I suppose my lists for today are going to incorporate that somehow. Oh happy day!

~things I like about Wisconsin
>Wisconsin cheese
>dairy farms
>trees
>the Scandinavian culture that has influenced WI
>Autumn

~song choices for today~
>Bleeding love - Leona Lewis
>French Cafe - Marc Broussard
>Summertime - The Sundays
>Que sera, Sera - Pink Martini
>Lips like Morphine - Kill Hannah

second highest played songs on itunes
>Two times - The Blakes
times played 50
>Fire it up - Modest Mouse
times played 43
>Walking on Air - Kerli
times played 39
>Limit to your love - Feist
times played 36
>Non, Se Ne Regrette Rien - Edith Piaf
times played 35

reasons I gave up coffee
>caffeine dependency
>it felt like a good idea
>it was costing me oodles of money
>wanted to know if I could
>osteoporosis

reasons I want coffee
>I like it
>I need caffeine
>it tastes so yummy
>fall is here and hot coffee is liquid sunshine
>alertness

'tis Wednesday again.

Before I get into the lists I’d like to give an honorable mention to this book “From the Streets to the sheet”.


It gets an honorable mention for the following categories.
1. best use of the word quickies EVAH!
2. best description of content
3. best picture to go with content and 3 word description
4. best choice of title
5. awesome author name

and by best I do mean the most ridiculous. I mean seriously, who goes to the think tank and say Yo, dog, I think we should use the word quickies to describe short stories.

~song artists of the day
>A Fine Frenzy
>Bright Eyes
>Ryan Adams
>Rammstein
>Modest Mouse


~songs of the day~
>Feuer Frei! - Rammstein
>Near to you - A Fine Frenzy
>Fire it up - Modest Mouse
>Lime Tree - Bright Eyes
>Dear Chicago - Ryan Adams

~must reads~
>Bunny comic
>xkcd
>Questionable Content
>Savage Chicken
>Toothpaste for dinner


~coffee drinks of the day
>caramel macchiato iced/hot
>starbucks doubleshot on ice
>hazelnut breve latte
>mint mocha chip frappuccino
>cinnamon dolce latte

top played songs on itunes
>Falling or Flying - Grace Potter and the Nocturnals
times played 72
>Butterfly - Jason Mraz
times played 60
>Chasing Pavements - Adele
times played 52
>Ashes to Wine - A Fine Frenzy
times played 52
>Near to you - A Fine Frenzy
times played 51

The public hears you...

Today I give you random patron phone conversation.
TADA!

loud phone guy: [as he's walking into the library] he was in Irag 6 years. yeah. Military. I don't know
uh.
I don't understand you.
yeah. he came into the liberry (I swear that is what he said) so I don't know.
huh.
oh. yeah.
yeah, I forgot.
so, uh, how'd you like it?
Have you left where you were headed?
You told me...
oh, here he is.
what?
a'ight.
bye.
~~~~~~~~~

Dear Loud phone guy,

Please remember that when you enter the library that you have entered into a sacred domain, a secret haven, a place of refuge for those who would like peace, quiet and a good book to read. We do not (really) want to hear you yell into your phone in random bursts. Oh and dude, next time could you please have an interesting conversation? could you leave out the yeah's? Perhaps you could give us the back story of your friend in the military that would be nice. Oh, and who, in their right mind says "have you left where you were headed?" seriously dude, go back to school. Get yourself an education or something.


On behalf of everyone at your local library, thanks for the giggles.

Sincerely,
Library Staff.

not a Wednesday's child

I think I'm going to make Wednesday's my list day.

for today we'll stick to 5 lists and limit each list to 5 things.

~things I like~
>foreign music
>handsome men
>sarcastic comics
>books
>cooking

~things I do not like~
>cooked liver
>rude people
>goo, slime, anything unrecognisable esp. on books
>crap fiction
>overplayed songs

wow, I know there are things that I do not like, but that list was difficult to make. I couldn't think of things that I a) wouldn't put up with if necessary b) things that I don't like, but have to touch, talk to, eat etc. if forced by a) my job b) life throwing me a curve.

~names we've given some of our regular patrons~
>crazy lady
>Mr. tight pants
>creepy guy
>Mr. Slicky pants
>Mr. giant belt buckle.

~names for our local police men~
>blonde cop
>brunette cop
>tall cop
>new guy
> there are only 4 officers

~books I like~
>The Scarlet letter
>Madame Bovary
>Feet of Clay
>Descartes
>Jane Eyre

overheard at your local library

being that I work at a library, I am sometimes privy to the most amazing conversations and questions.


crazy lady: [to self] stupid retards.
I'm not crazy.
I know.
Weirdos.
I know.
filthy, nasty retards.
They think I'm crazy. I'm not crazy.
I know, I know.

~~ if you don't believe me - have a little listen - crazy lady.

patron1: ooooooo, girlfriend.
p2: No, I am serious.
p1: really?
p2: yeah, like totally.
p1: I'm like WTF.
p2: oh, yeah, I know what you mean. uh huh. for real.

~~ that was the most informative bit of conversation ever. {eyeroll}

daughter: so, what do you want to put on your yahoo personal, dad?
father: tell them that I'm into athletics. chicks like that. ~~ he's in a wheelchair.
daughter: you should say you like long walks on the beach.
father: yeah, go ahead and put that also. Oh, and tell them that I like romantic dinners. ~~ I bet he does as he weighs close to 300-350 pounds.

~~ I was thinking, in disbelief, the entire time "These are the people that you find via internet dating sites?!" Seriously?!

be a superhero... or just be cranky.

Some days I wish I had a secret super hero life. I don't know if I want to fight crime... but I wouldn't mind some excitement. Some change in the ever growing monotony that is my present existence. I might even fix some of the peeves about my job.

I work at a public library and most days I adore it.
Though I'm usually hiding behind a partition typing madly on my computer, reading web comics, updating paperwork, processing books and pretending that I'm busy.

but once a week I have to work up at the circulation desk with the horrifyingly stupid public. I've met some wonderful normal patrons... they usually keep us, and by us I mean me, from going completely bonkers.

so, there are a few things with my job that annoy the heck out of me.

Because I work inter-library loan, I deal with people who are looking for items that our library does not own. They then request that we get that item from another library system.

ILL annoyance numero uno:
people who expect books from other libraries to arrive TOMORROW. Yes, you heard me, tomorrow. This isn't even possible if it were sent from a library 2 blocks away let alone from one in, say, California or a coast. drrrrrr....
the phone calls I get go something like this --
me:Inter-library loan department this is Ripsy. How may I help you?
patron: yes, I put in a request for an inter-library loan book. can you check on its status for me please? cause I haven't heard anything about it.
me: okay, what is your last name?
patron: X. do you think I should place another request?
me: um. no. I don't think so. was that request for title "Going Places"?
patron: yes. Is it in yet?
me: No, I'm sorry, it hasn't been shipped yet. I also see that you put the request in two days ago. That really is not enough time for the post office to deliver it to our library, let alone for the library in Ypsilanti to pull it off their stacks and send it.
patron: So, it isn't there yet?
me: um.. no, it isn't here yet. I say give it another week. Okay? Is there anything else?
patron: oh. okay. No, that was the only question. goodbye then.
*click*

ILL annoyance numero dos:
patrons who call about ILL's that are overdue. They call to "find out" how much fines are while hinting that they may have lost the book. They don't directly say those words, but they hint.

patron:yes, I have an inter-library loan item that is overdue. can you tell me what the fine is going to be?
me:fines are $0.20 a day with a maximum fine of $5.00.
patron:well, what is my fine right now?
me:May I have your library card number please?
patron: 98347982174892
me:that book is about 3 weeks overdue. Your total fine right now is $4.20, but that will increase each day, by $0.20, the longer you keep the book. Now, if you cannot return the book we'll have to ask the loaning library for an invoice. They can charge anywhere from $25.00 to $100.00 for a book. I think it would be best if you dropped that off at any of our locations.
patron:but the highest my fine can go is $5.00?
me:yes
patron:okay, thanks.

*sigh*
why can't they just bring them back? Why do they insist on being delinquent with items that are not ours, items that another library has kindly, out of the goodness of their hearts, loaned to us? why? why? why?


Perhaps I should give up trying to be a super hero and just get a long black trench coat and a baseball bat and visit their homes to retrieve said items. Aaaahhh what a thought.

*le sigh*

My day has just begun and I'm ready to go home. The heat of summer and the monotony of my job are getting to me. I need a vacation. I need some thrills, spills, and a beach or pool. Then I need an entire weekend to just sit by the water and read... read about far away places, places that sound inviting, exotic and lacking in stress. speaking of -- renewed passport should be arriving in my mail box any day now. am so supah excited about that. Perhaps I really can plan a vacation to that exotic place.

I'm completely frustrated with life at the moment. To the point that I wonder if I know what I'm doing, where I'm going or if it even matters. Have you had your family tell you that you need a change because a) you voiced an opinion which made you sound dissatisfied or unhappy b) you are dissatisfied, but not unhappy -- ?
meh. the story of my life this year. *le sigh*

There are times I complain about the people in my life, my job, my housing situation, my life in general etc., but doesn't everyone? I mean come on. just because I have occasional bouts of chronic complaining doesn't mean I need to change my ENTIRE life. I don't need to move to another state, get another job, make new friends etc. I just need a calm day and a vacation from stress once in a while.

meh.

could be worse I suppose.

A common sense of reality

-- alt text: he wasn't there again today, I wish that thing would just go away.